I am not trying to sing Rihanna’s song, I am only trying to move from this rut which seems to be consuming me. I don’t mean to sound ungrateful, I am very grateful for the opportunity, but it’s been too long, I feel like it’s time for me to “Shine bright like a diamond”. I have tried to shine here but there seems to be a moment, or an event or just something which takes away the shine and makes me feel like the effort has gone unnoticed.
The’here’ that I need to move away from is my current job. I have worked here for four years now, doing the same things, just rotating around the same department. Basically I have done everything that has to be done in this department, at first it was utilization and employee relations, then it was remuneration and benefits, then back to utilization with a bit of training and development, and then back to remuneration and benefits AGAIN.
No promotion. I am not looking for an ‘easy come’ opportunity where I just wake up one day and have myself appointed to a higher position. I know I work hard in my department, I am one of the most reliable employees and I know my job very well. I am conversant with the rules and regulations which govern us, that is very important when you work in the human resource department. It sounded like a covering letter for a job application right there, but I wanted to make things clear. I am not asking for a favor, I am asking or rather seeking an opportunity to shine like a diamond.
At my age, I do not believe it’s wise to stay in one position for five years, no!!! Time is moving fast, I need to grow some more, I need more challenging opportunities. Basically, I’m getting bored in this position. This scares me, I am very committed to my job but when there’s no fun anymore, I worry that I’m going down slowly. I don’t want to lose my shine because I want to still possess it when I get a more challenging opportunity. That way I will be able to give the same kind of energy to that opportunity.
Three years into this job, I wanted to leave it. I started applying for jobs in other organizations. At some point I stopped applying because I believed I was not at a point where I could leave the security of a government job yet. I continued working here and I do not regret it because at that time, I continued gathering all the necessary experience and then got an opportunity to further my studies in my field in India. But while in India, I realized that I could never get where I wanted to go by staying in the government and waiting for a ‘better qualification’. I had thought a ‘better qualification’ would ensure that I stay in the private sector, if I were given the opportunity to go.
Joining the private sector now while I still have the energy, passion and hopefully wisdom, to take an organization far is wiser than trying to do that later. If I continue studying while already in the private sector, I will be much more beneficial to the organization which will have employed me. Also, attending seminars will prove helpful in developing myself in my career.
I am back to applying for another job. I’m on a constant look out for the opportunities, always preparing for an interview I have not been called to yet, sometimes willing my phone to ring… I need to “Shine Bright Like a Diamond” and I need that to happen NOW!! Now while I still have the energy and passion to do it. I want this energy to be utilized elsewhere, where my efforts will be realized and probably make a difference. I am making a difference here, I suppose, but here it is to a lesser extent than it would be in the private sector, in one big organization, maybe a banking institution or a project meant to alleviate poverty and cut down the number of HIV infections, maybe an organization which deals with child and maternal health. I want to shine, and I need my spark to affect some one or some people positively. I can no longer shine here where my spark is too small to be felt because of how big the government is and how much red tape is involved.
DO you want to shine? Shine Bright Like A Diamond in your career!!!